These are the moments..

As crazy as this journey has been, and trying to myself and my husband – physically, mentally, emotionally..I don’t know if I would trade a minute of it for anything. As crazy as that sounds, there are moments like the one I am going to share from this morning that almost makes me wonder if we’re here on this journey together for a reason. I sometimes think that maybe he’s here to teach me to slow down, to enjoy life, to love a little harder and breathe a little more. You can’t tell me these amazing creatures were put here just because..I know he has a deep calling with that look in his eyes. So anyway, here we go. In the morning Bentley usually makes me drag him out of bed to go eat and potty. He’s pretty much always been like this, except for the couple weeks he was on steroids and then he’d run me over to get to food haha. But this am he came down and went right outside, and usually he’ll just pee and then want back in. Today, he went out and wandered around with his sisters a minute so I went back in to fix their breakfast.  All of a sudden I hear barking (thought he was telling me to let him in), so I go look – and he’s sitting up on the hill in the trees just sniffing and frolicking. So I said, “you’re a silly boy, are you having fun out there?” Turned back around and went back inside to finish breakfast and clean up. 3 seconds later barks again, same routine, 3 times we do this and I’m sure at this point my neighbors are annoyed. So finally I go outside and see if there’s something up there he’s seeing or something bothering him..I sit down next to him, he looks at me, licks me from chin to forehead with a big goofy grin..and then continues to look around and watch the birds. We sat like this for 15 minutes, side by side, my arm around him.  This was him, and the world, telling me that dishes weren’t important – but this moment here with him – will never get back. God he is so right!! From a control freak, OCD, Anal, schedule and routine obsessed woman..it is so often impossible for me to ‘live in the moment’. But boy is this cancer monster ever a reason to do so..and he is showing me everyday what truly matters in life. It’s moment’s like these that make me wonder if we’re on this crazy caner ride for a greater purpose, and if in fact he was sent to me for something more than belly rubs and a shoulder to cry on. <3

Love and kisses to all!

Kate and Bentley

xo