Our last day as a 4-legged furry guy!

What a day we have had today!! We did get his biopsy back from the nodule in his spleen and it was cancer free waaahoooo!!! We had our consult this morning with the surgeon for tomorrows operation. I was not at all prepared for the consultation with the surgeon. I know it’s good that she is honest, but I guess I wasn’t as prepared for this operation as I thought! She was explaining that because of Bentley’s hip displaysia, that his recovery was probably going to be much slower going. She also told us to bring a T-shirt for him post-op as we will not want to see all of his incisions and bruising. That is when it hit me what we were about to do. I assume that everyone goes through these same emotions, all of a sudden I started second guessing what I was doing in deciding to remove one of my dogs limbs. So I came home and decide to look up online to see pictures and videos of recently amputated big dogs..I guess in hopes to prepare myself more. What I found instead of second guessing myself, was a renewed hope that I was indeed doing what was best for my baby. I cannot even fathom the pain that this stupid cancer is causing him – and seeing the videos of other dogs running and jumping into their peoples arms when they come to pick them up after surgery was absolutely amazing. It brought me to my knees in tears, in a good way though! After a week of crying, cursing, asking myself why? and not knowing what to do..I find myself with a fierce fight in my heart, and more love for this furry baby than I could ever imagine. He has always been my rock, my best friend, and now it’s my time to fight for him! I am so hopeful about the future we will have together, 3 paws and all! 🙂

So tonight we got our our bad-ass cancer beating surgery T-shirts from Daddy’s closet and we’re throwing an impromptu “pre-surgery” party for him with our closest family and friends. 🙂 He goes in tomorrow morning for surgery, so we ask for paws crossed, prayers, and healing vibes for an uneventful day tomorrow!!!!

Big Rotty Kisses, Bentley and Kate xoxo