Month: September 2014

I can’t believe it’s been 2 months today since I said goodbye to my best friend, my protector, my baby boy, my hero. You were the most brave, amazing, courageous fighter I’ve ever know. You stared cancer in the face and declared it’d never win. You were right..we lived every day to the fullest, never wasted a moment, and learned to appreciate the small things. I will never again have the bond with anyone (human or otherwise) that I had with you – when I moved, you moved. I know you are now running pain free with all of your friends in a beautiful world, waiting for me. Not a single hour goes by that I don’t think of you – sometimes with laughter and smiles, sometimes with tears and anger..every day is different without you. Your sisters both miss you too..I think they think that I’m sleeping, but every night I see them. KaiKai gets down off mommy’s bed and curls up in your bed, and not 30 seconds later Meeky comes out from under the bed and sleeps on the floor next to her touching your bed. Like me, I think they feel close to you there. There’s a part of me that will never EVER be the same – a large part of me left with you, just like a large part of you stayed with me. But I have to believe that our journey was not one of sadness and agony, yet one of love and light…you taught me so much about life, love, and true friendship. Those lessons I will carry with me forever. Every sunset has more meaning, every flower more vibrant, every cool breeze full of life..in all of these things I feel you here with me still. I long for the day that we will be reunited again. As I come to the bridge – arms outstretched and home free, I know that I will see you running to meet me..that big goofy grin, eyes wide and laughing, tongue hanging out the side, and your ears flapping in the wind. And until that day my bear, watch over me my guardian angel. Mommy loves you today, tomorrow, always.
xo